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Thursday, November 28, 2013

Hanging out in San Francisco on Thanksgiving Day

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A few days ago we crossed the Oregon border into California. There's something so mesmerizingly beautiful about this part of the country that the feeling of awe never goes away each time we cruise down these coastal highways and arrive in the City by the Bay.

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Now, hanging out in our favorite hostel and traipsing around the city on Thanksgiving Day, Scotty and I are pretty stoked to be here.

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After a solid week of being mostly ferry and van-bound, being in San Francisco is a welcome change of pace.

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Here, we like walking for hours, exploring different neighborhoods, and popping into random restaurants for a drink and appetizer.

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And of course, staying at our favorite hostel (this is our fourth time here in three years!).

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'Hope you've enjoyed the photographic wrap-up of our last 24 hours... it may not be a traditional way to spend the day, but we're feeling pretty lucky to be here!

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"Owl" be back soon!

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Not just another ferry tale

IMG_4299 A disclaimer: These observations are not meant to imply that taking the ferry to and from Alaska isn’t a great trip, because traveling on the Alaska Marine Highway is something I think everyone should do at least once. 

 IMG_4268Traveling Alaska’s Inside Passage, on a ferry built in 1963, helps drive home the concept of literally stepping back in time. The surrounding mountains and forests are still pristine and mostly untouched, services and amenities are simple yet refreshingly unpretentious, and it’s a great excuse to talk to people, or catch up on some reading.

IMG_4245When we left Juneau on the ferry four days ago, I was still in full-on “go” mode. In record time, we’d packed up our apartment, Scotty had finished our mini-van/ camper to be road-trip ready, and in our “spare time” hung out with good friends before we left. Finally on board, we would be able to immediately relax. Or so I thought.

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In warmer months, it's popular for passengers who haven't reserved a private cabin to sleep outside on deck in the solarium, a sheltered area with small space heaters on the ceiling, But in winter, it's a different story; traveling by ferry without a private cabin this time of year isn’t exactly a picnic. In retrospect, I’d admit that even for a cheapskate like me, the $308 dollars for the smallest cabin without a window is probably worth the money, especially split between two people.

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Even though we have our mini-van we plan to sleep in for the majority of our road trip across the country, it’s against the rules to stay below in the car deck (though I’d be willing to bet a few people get away with it from time to time, especially those with larger campers). But even if we wanted to, it would be kind of cramped to hide out in our little rig, to say the least.

Instead, Scotty and I have essentially been “backpacking” on the ferry, lugging around a large pack each with sleeping bags and mats, toiletries, and near mealtimes, a food bag. In addition, I have my purse and another small bag with the laptop and other odds and ends, like power cords and a few magazines. There are only three opportunities to go down to the car deck each day for 15 minutes, at 8:30 a.m., 1:30 p.m., and 8:30 p.m. It’s time allotted to safely exchange gear and visit pets that must be left in vehicles. People walk their dogs, trying to coax them into doing their business indoors after a lifetime of the opposite. And I’d be willing to bet that most of the people traveling this way do have dogs, because as pet-less people, Scotty and I definitely seem to be the minority.

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Besides having to keep us with our things on board, acceptable sleeping areas for those without a cabin make for a bit of a competition among passengers. Limited tables in the main sleeping lounge mean that those get staked out right away, with people keeping their stuff there for the entire trip. If this sounds annoying, it is, especially if you did not stake one out in time. Scotty and I did, however, find a decent enough row of chairs to claim, and there we will keep our things for the next 24 hours. ;)

With our sleeping stuff being used as a spot-holder, we bring only valuables with us when we move around, go to the cafeteria or the bathroom. Yesterday, after a brief stop in Ketchikan, an announcement informed us that someone’s wallet had gone “missing”. Scotty shook his head and cocked an eyebrow. “Honey, there’s a thief among us,” he quipped. Sadly, even on a nice, safe ferry, this stuff happens. By nature, we’re bound to get distracted in unfamiliar environments and it’s a useful reminder that even if someone won’t outright rob you, an unattended valuable might as well have a free sign stuck on it for some people.

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None of this is meant to dissuade you from traveling this way and I know I’d do it again, given the opportunity. But I have to admit, I might be getting a little old for three-day long sleepovers in the common room.

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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

We’re going on a BIG trip (or, Intro to Big Trip 2)…


(Written on Tuesday, November 19, 2013)

Right now, I’m seated in the Recliner Lounge of the M/V Malaspina, an Alaska State ferry, en route to Bellingham, Washington with my love, Scotty and our mini-van/ converted camper.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Two months later


I've been putting off this post for a while, struggling to find any words at all. Today, it's been exactly two months since my dear brother Eric passed away on September 6th, 2013. It's time to find my voice and write, even though the weight of losing him feels like it will never go away.



Losing Eric seems like a nightmare I keep waiting to wake from. He was only 29, a kind, loving, intelligent, funny, and thoughtful person. Throughout his life, Eric shared many laughs and adventures with his friends and family. He enjoyed good conversation, enthusiastically discussing life and spirituality. Eric loved to make people laugh, delivering wry insights and hilarious impressions with a twinkle in his eye.


He was kind to everyone he met and always made time to be there for the people he loved.

And though Eric experienced many joyous times in his life, he also struggled with depression and addiction. My brother fought hard to overcome these obstacles, a battle familiar to many people. And as hard as he tried to make things better, as much as others did and said all they could to help, this has still come to pass. For a long time I feared losing him, something I tried to rationalize as too awful to ever become reality. And then it did.



Right now my family is struggling to heal, to pick up the pieces of our lives, while simultaneously grieving and missing Eric. Sometimes doing these things seem mutually exclusive. Because how can you smile or laugh or enjoy even the smallest of things when doing so seems impossible or disloyal or simply unfair because he's gone? The first couple weeks I could hardly eat or sleep and each day and night blended together. Impossibly, these past two months have seemed but a moment and an eternity.


I miss my brother with every ounce of my being. I know I'll miss him every single day for the rest of my life. But all the love he shared with me makes me feel like he'll never really be gone. I wouldn't be me without him.




I'm all out of words. But I'm going to keep living and writing and holding my brother in my heart.